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I was just listening to this song and it makes me smile because it makes me think of him. Isn't it when you are in love everything makes sense? Or is it just that we try and find everything related to the one we love? I think either way the world works, love makes us happy! And that is definitely the case with me.


He makes me happy, more than just bringing happiness to my life, he makes everything way better and makes me feel at home wherever we are.

"Home is wherever I'm with you" 

Don't you see you're doing it again?

And it never goes old, it has probably been like this since forever! How come all the people who claims "do not celebrate Valentine's"or just claims "to hate the world's worst marketing evil day" keeps somehow acknowledging this day and therefore celebrating it in a twisted way????

So without further due, I'll just make my point: GET OVER IT PEOPLE!!! 

same thing...over and over again (image from http://www.eatdrinkandrun.com)

I am sure I am not the only one who is tired of you bitchin'!! If you don't like it, take it to your congressman, sign a petition, take pledges, start a cause on facebook, occupy a street, join occupy, do anything proactive instead of just unpleasantly complain or try too hard to be too cool to celebrate this ok?

GRACIAS!

I loved you but I wanted to punch you in the face

It's true, I wanted to punch you in the face.

Algunas veces tienes razón, y las otras, las otras simplemente te equivocas

Y no pasa nada, cierto? Depende, todo depende. Y es que precisamente acabo de hacer un "self deployment inventory", meh! un test de esos que se inventan en las escuelas de negocios para analizar las personalidades en cuestiones de trabajo en equipo, entre otras cosas que no vienen mucho al caso. El punto es que en este test me di cuenta de que sobre analizo muchas cosas y más importante que mi obsesión por los números, gráficas y hechos, me di cuenta que antes de empezar a hacer el ejercicio, yo ya tenía una clasificación mental sobre los grupos a los que irían a dar algunos de mis compañeros de la clase. Ajá y eso qué? Pues pasa que siempre he sido una persona prejuiciosa y juzgona, ya! Lo dije y lo acepto con sus consecuencias, lo soy.

Sin embargo, algunas veces esta característica me ha traído problemas. Conste que no lo digo por mi clase (en la cual tuve aciertos en un 95%, y no, no estoy mintiendo), lo digo, lo pienso porque muchas veces me he equivocado. Tengo que decir que en esas veces me he perdido de conocer gente muy interesante y en algunas circunstancias mucho más graves, he emitido juicios que: a) No me corresponden b) Me dañan a mí y a terceros y/o c) Terminan alejándome de personas importantes en mi vida, o buenos amigos.

Estos días me he puesto a pensar un poco más sobre esto y en como tendría que dejarlo de lado porque definitivamente no me beneficia, o en una resolución un poco más factible, creo que simplemente la opción sería no compartir mis opiniones con terceras personas y defitivamente no creer que lo sé todo, ni que tengo alguna autoridad para juzgar a los demás y sus acciones. Y todo porque descubrí a una persona que de una manera muy indirecta está relacionada conmigo y aunque ella podría juzgarme e incluso perjudicarme, decidió lo contrario.

Finalmente, creo que puedo decir que el hecho de estar sola y hacer cosas que no hubiera hecho antes me ha servido y sobre todo me ha dado mucho tiempo para pensar. Por ejemplo ir sola a los conciertos.

Art of almost - Wilco (The Wiltern)

locks and blocks and locks and blocks

It's funny how I see things today, maybe not that funny and more usual than I would ever accept. Every single time I come write ramble about my deepest feelings is because I am under the influence of hormones or an external trigger of emotions. I decided to call this "locks..." because sometimes I have the idea that I can't put into words what is it that I really want. For instance, at this very moment, what I wanted to say is that I do not express exactly what I want, even if it is something simple and let's not even go that far as feelings, because that can be almost impossible.

Today I feel like I am carrying this huge burden (hence the block part of the title), and this may be an over statement, since that's my thing, I make things look bigger than they actually are. Either is that or the fact that I am a control freak and no kidding, I am a true dictionary definition, when things do not go my way I do freak out! That and a very insecure person, for some reason I am very hard on myself and even though I have certain desirable things, I always think there's something wrong with me.

However this is me, this is all part of who I am and no matter what I do or where I go, this will be me until the end. The whole point about this one is that I want simple things and I can't ask for them, it is like having an emotional lock up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJYORMcyI5g

the not so fine art of ignoring feelings

It may not be an art but it could probably count as a skill, which in my case is not so developed. Over the years, I have tried to get rid of certain strings and when I couldn't do it, I always went back... Today, that is not an option, obviously, but I can see myself remembering those old days when I tried to let go and couldn't.

Now, I feel like I am one step ahead and I can say that I am happy even with all my ups and downs.

moments beyond awkward

What to do if this incredibly good looking/Abercrombie-model guy approaches and tell you you're beautiful? If you are as fucked up as I am, you run and cry...Exactly what I did.